3! Restart! Hats!

Cakers is three now! Yikes. I can hardly believe it right now. The time has passed so quickly. It makes me realize that time passes faster than you really think it does. Hubz & I have been married for almost five(!) years, I have a teenager (EEK!), we've lived in this apartment for 2 years now. So many more things that have just flown on by, too many to list.

I've failed miserably at the 101 in 1001 challenge/goal. I'm going to start over again. AGAIN. There are so many things on that list that I want to accomplish. Now that I've got a printer I can have a hard copy of my goals sitting in front of me and do some other things I wanted to do to help keep myself on track. I plan to print individual goals and the steps I will take to get there, print out little reminders to myself of things I can do to work towards completing goals. All things I'm too lazy or busy to write out by hand.

I've joined a(nother) new group on Ravelry. This one is the 52 Hat Challenge. The idea is to make 52 hats in 52 weeks. The end of the goal is technically the last day of 2009. Since I joined later that Jan 1, I've got a little bit of catch-up to do. But I've already got one hat done. One thing I really like about this particular challenge group is that it doesn't specify where the hats have to go. I haven't got the money to ship a hat somewhere, much less 52 of them. It's just "challenge yourself to get it done and don't worry where they've got to go". You can donate them, gift them, or keep them! Very cool. Especially since I've got several hats I want to make for certain people in my life. However, I don't think I've got 52 people that I want to give a hat to, so I'll certainly keep one or two myself but I think I'll have a few to donate. I'm not sure where to donate them just yet. I mean, Dr. Green's office/the Oncology Department would appreciate them, I'm sure, but so would the children's hospital. Since they've both helped us, for different members of our family, I'd think I'll give some to each. But then again, there's ECHO and House of Mercy (one of the area's homeless shelters) and the YWCA battered women's shelter and all the elementary schools around here like to have extra hats for kids who lose their own. So many worthy causes to choose from. And they all need them. How does one decide?

My mother has started dialysis. Her kidneys finally gave out. No, let me rephrase that, she finally killed them. They got sick of her abuse. I love my mother, don't get me wrong, but she doesn't care for herself. She says she wants to live to see all her grandkids graduate and go to college but her actions contradict that. And she blames everyone for it except herself. She's completely in denial about her diabetes (she was diagnosed in like 1990 and still acts like she's not sick!), she refuses to follow doctor's orders, no matter how many times they tell her that if she doesn't do this or that she's going to die. She completely refuses to accept responsibility for her actions and behaviors. Plus she lies her ass off on a regular basis. To her family, to her doctors, to her friends. Most everyone knows her games now, though, but not everyone. The woman my mom calls her best friend didn't even know she had full blown diabetes until just a couple of weeks ago. They've known each other since 1998 and my mother always hid it from her and downplayed the full scope of it. It's totally ridiculous. And I know I sound totally callous and compassionless but if you've lived her game, that's how you end up when it comes to her.

Happy New Year!

Dear Blogger,

Do you feel neglected? Oops. I guess we can call me FAIL for my 101 in 1001. But I'll end up trying again. But I did actually complete some of the goals.

4. Complete at least one knitting project a month. (4?/33)
This I've done. Yay for me! Not that I've posted any of them.

7. Call Christi once a week.
Sometimes it's once a day! Shit, sometimes it's even more than that!

27. Motivate someone to do their own 101 things in 1001 days.
This is half-done. My sister says she wants to do it and (?) started a list but I don't know how far she went with it. I'll have to ask her about it again. We were supposed to be "101 Buddies" and support each other's quest for life change.

39. Get new glasses.
Just waiting for them to arrive at the eye doc's. Very anxiously, I might add. I think they're really cute and my current ones are about to break!

46. Go 48 hours without the internet.
It wasn't really intentional, I just kinda realized one afternoon that I hadn't checked into my Ravelry in a loooong time. So does that count?

55. Make first pair of socks.
Done. I made them for Lula and she loves them. The first one went pretty slowly as I was learning the ins and outs. Every time she saw it she asked if it was done. Then when I finished it and started its buddy, she said, "Oh, I get two?!" It was freakin' adorable. I actually like making socks, too! It was fun and way less difficult than it can be made out to be.

And now that I'm trying to blog again, Cakers and Bam woke up J-Bug. Go fucking figure.

Love, me.