I'm struggling. I got a job. Woooo, right? Sort of. It's the job that I want, but I'm stuck doing it from 630pm until 5am. Plus a 45+ minute drive each way. But it's money and we need money. I wanted to do day shift, but because of certain things in my life that are not going to change, I can't. I'm a little scared because I'm looking at how life is going to be scheduled and I'm not going to be getting enough sleep. There's no way around it. I'm also a little scared because the last time I worked overnights, I went to a really bad place and things were precarious and I'm glad I'm still here today. I'm starting in a much better place now than I was then, but it's not so long ago that I'm able to dismiss what happened. I've tried since we got here to get a job closer, but no luck. I'm trying so hard to look on the bright side, but I'm just not a third shift person.
All that complaining aside, I ***am*** extremely glad to have a job! The benefits are pretty dang amazing, too. And money! It will give me money!
