If this, then why that?

If god was so damn wonderful, why is that boy dying of cancer? Why does a family have to bury their little child? I'm sure they've been praying all along, how is praying more going to help?

The argument that "god does these things to make you stronger"? Maybe that boy's mother doesn't fucking want to be stronger! She's a mother- she's already strong!

If the argument is "it's all in god's plan", I thought Free Will was in the plan. If it's already mapped out, beginning to end, there really no free will then, is there?

I need good, real answers to these questions. I don't want "oh you just have to believe". Give cancer to a rapist. Give cancer to a murderer. Give cancer to a child abuser. Or give the cure for cancer to a scientist.

The Song of Us

Every time I hear that certain song, the song you said represented Us, Our Friendship, it hurts so much. The pain is refreshed. The pain is made raw again. It was one of my favorite songs before you ever gave it meaning. Why did you have to ruin the song for me? But more so, why did you have to ruin our friendship? I never wanted anything but the best for you. The jealousy is ridiculous. I know that's part of it. But the situation that makes you jealous will never change. And it's not what you think it is, anyhow. I can't explain it to you, but it's not.

You hurt me. Forever. I can forgive you, but I can't forget. If I forget, I might let it happen again. Lesson learned, babe. Have a great life.